It all started last night, while i was praying in my bed, i was asking God to guide all the people that i love when suddenly something or someone popped in my mind.. guess what/who? well it's a who. it was my dad. i don't know why he popped in my mind, maybe it's because i just miss him that much. or maybe reminding me something? at that time i really have no idea, but then i remembered that 3 weeks ago i was writing a letter for him, but what letter? it was a birthday letter. my mom bought a birthday card so that we could send it to him. at that very moment i called my mom. i asked her what's the date of dad's birthday. if you ask, yup! i don't know when my dad's birthday is, im so STUPID! a daughter not knowing her fathers' birthday, is the stupidest thing in the whole world! then she said "august 24" when i heard that, i froze. questions keep running in my mind. mixed emotions. i don't know what to do..ohmyy!:'( "i don't know when my dad's birthday is and i just found out yesterday! that time i felt my eyes stinging then tears rolled down my face, i can't believe myself, i think im the worst person alive! then memories of my dad my sister and i keep flashing on my head. it was like a movie,remembering how we were so happy together. at that time i feel like running away and just wanted cry my heart out. i was screaming inside and nobody can hear it until my mom went in and asked me why i was crying, i can't tell her why.. i was scared..scared of what? I DON'T KNOW! i hid under the blanket not listening to what my mom was saying..then i fell asleep. when i woke up the next morning i looked at myself in the mirror to see my eyes were bloodshot! maybe i cried myself to sleep. up to this day i still feel bad about what happened. i really want to call my dad ryt now and just tell him how i love him and miss him,to tell him that up to this very time i still think and care about him. i love you daddy!.i miss you!.
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